I fell in love for the first time and it hurt me. It hurt me to see you in pain. It hurt me to know I couldn’t help you, it hurt me to know you got someone better than me. Someone who makes you happy. But instead it hurt me more to know that your relationship is just about that-one-thing. To know she hurt you even more than all the feelings I had for you. It hurt me to know that our friendship is over. definitely. now and forever.

I fell in love for the second time and I was happy. I saw your smile and I just felt so satisfied. We cared about us, we laughed, we had a great time. Yeah we had… But you felt in love, too. With this one girl I called my friend. I felt in love but I got hurt as well. My heart warmed up to see you beeing happy with this wonderful girl on your side. And I love to see you. I love to see her. But both of you beeing that happy was unbelievable painful. Even more than my first messed up love.

I fell in love for the third time and I’m proud. Proud of me, proud of you, proud of us. Proud to be on your side. To care of you, to see your smile. To know that I’m the one who can make you happy and to be the one you want. To kiss you, to hold you, to talk to you. nothing could be better. Nothing can hurt me anymore, ‘cause I learned what it means to “really get hurt”. And I love the time we spend together. every single minute.

I had to fall in love for 3 times. To get those strong feelings, to get hurt and killed. messed up and left alone. Just to meet you. Just to love you. Just to spend time with you. Just to be happy.

And I have no regrets. 

I will never regret my true feelings I had for every single girl I fell in love.

And you can have your own opinion when you read this, but I’m proud of every single minute I was in love with someone. And I will always take care of those ones.I will always be there when they need me. Always. 

I will never forget. Never. ‘cause only because of those feelings I finally understood what true happiness is like.